Another day en el infierno

Yep, the story of my life. Thanks for letting me talk about this, I keep going around pretending that nothing has happened but nobody understands how i feel inside. If you knew us both you would say that we both had it coming, we have a long distance relationship and we got to a point where we were too busy with work, school and other things to really pay attention to each other.
It was his decision to take some time to think about things, he says he "needs some space" to what i said "F***ing move to Mars", but he didn't think it was funny.
I love him and I do want to get married to him, but i'm not going to wait all my life for him to figure where he is in his life, I'm not ready to go and date either, couple of months ago i was getting ready to get married, now I'm thinking of ways to not start crying while I’m at work.