improving or getting worse?

I have only checked my personal e-mail 3 times today. Bad, but still an improvement from 25 times in 5 hours.
I sent him an e-mail 6 days ago, i know he is not supposed to answer it, but he used to. He also used to send me all kinds of things bia e-mail.

Since we started this whole "I need space/ a break" thing I drive myself crazy everyday thinking.

How many times have I talked about his already. I think that this is what is making me sick, spending days and nights wondering what is wrong with me, or with the relationship and trying to find books that will tell me how to fix it, and even doing that everyday, at work, in my break, at work again he still tells me that i'm not trying hard enough, that this is not working.

I'm going crazy that is for sure.